Complicated feeling + Mood

it's been a while didn't update my diary here..heheheh..just wanted to share some of my thought..just wonderding i'm always said that i hate hyprocrite but i don't even know that actually i am or myself is hyprocrite, coz whenever im saying that.'owh i hate this and that people' but actually im doing this thing everyday and suprise2 i didnt ever realize it, owh man im very pathetic..and i hate when things like this happen, just make me hate myself..ohhh god -___-"..
Sometimes i do think that i need a counseling, coz when pathetic mood is on i can felt that everyone around me seem that don't like me and this make me crazy...owhhhh..help me god...and even worst i feel that im cheating myself to love someone, i tried but i just can't forgot past thing..owh god....
My mood for this few weeks its not good, and poor my sayang is the mangsa to release my bad temper, sorry sayang..tq for understanding me...just don't know what happen to me....GOD pls help me...what should i do now?

Pathetic Mood

NO MOOD

Kids nowdays are lucky

Today went out with DH to 1borneo, on my way for searching something, something getting me interested to do sam pat po..kekkekke...one of this girl, i think only secondary kids lar, the parents bought her a DSLR Canon Camera, and im bit jealous oso ba, coz i need to work and work and work for how many months till i earn some money from my pay to buy that things and this lucky girl only need to say "Mum i need a camera" then the mum oso bought for her..so lucky lar the girl..
Some how,i do wish money is easy to earn but it is not, i oso dunno how to lick my boss butt or the leg to get increment for my salary...haishhhh, i suppose to thank GOD for what i have today's...its not easy to have good job and im suppose to be proud of my self coz everything that i have now its from my own money and this can teach me how to survive for my future...(>_<)"

Dear Taiko

Xmas is coming, just wonder here how are u there, its been 1 year 5 months u have left us here...i really miss all the moment that how we spend our time for talking....Taiko, since u gone, our situation at home totally change, don't have time to clean to house, we done our own thing without helping each other...Taiko, everytime when i think of u, i always remember u said u hope between sibling relationship u hope that we will have good relationship, but i dunno why between us we just cannot have the good relationship, u are the one guide us everytime we having problem here, but now u gone...Taiko, mummy always mention of u everyday i sent her to work...Taiko, i know how to drive already, how i wish i can send u to anywhere u like now. Taiko, i use to be a proper manage time when u are around but now i do realize i have change, everyday i came back from work i only know to play online games, it used to be u are the one will advise me but now no one can advise me like u have done before...Taiko, i really miss the moment i share my problem with u, i have a lot things need to share with u, i just dunno whom should i share with now...Taiko...pls appear in my dream, i really need talk with u...i missed u so much, Xmas without u is very painful for me....Rest In Peace, Taiko

BOSSES don't EVER treat us like this

Have u ever feel like the above picture...ooohhhh boss we don't like shit....

Why I fired my Secretary.

Last week was my birthday
and I didn't feel very well
waking up on that morning.


I went downstairs for breakfast
hoping my wife would be pleasant and say,
"Happy Birthday!",
and possibly have a small present for me.


As it turned out,
she barely said good morning,
let alone
" Happy Birthday."

I thought...
Well,
that's marriage for you,
but the kids....
They will remember.

My kids came bounding down stairs to breakfast
and didn't say a word.
So when I left for the office,
I felt pretty low
and somewhat despondent.


As I walked into my office,
my secretary Jane said,
"Good Morning Boss,
and by the way
Happy Birthday ! "
It felt a little better
that at least someone had remembered.


I worked until one o'clock ,
when Jane knocked on my door
and said, "You know,
It's such a beautiful day outside,
and it is your Birthday,
what do you say we go out to lunch,
just you and me."
I said, "Thanks, Jane,
that's the greatest thing
I've heard all day.
Let's go !"



We went to lunch.
But we didn't go
where we normally would go.
She c hose instead at a quite bistro
with a private table.
We had two martinis each
and I enjoyed the meal tremendously.

On the way back to the office,
Jane said, "You know,
It's such a beautiful day...
We don't need to go straight back to the office,
Do We ?"



I responded,
"I guess not.
What do you have in mind ?"
She said,
"Let's drop by my apartment,
it's just around the corner."


After arriving at her apartment,
Jane turned to me and said,
" Boss, if you don't mind,
I'm going to step into the bedroom
for just a moment.
I'll be right back."

"Ok." I nervously replied.


She went into the bedroom and,

after a couple of minutes,

she came out

carrying a huge birthday cake ...

Followed

by my wife,

my kids,

and dozens of my friends

and co-workers,

all singing "Happy Birthday".





And I just sat there...





On the couch...





Naked.