when ur gone

while im doin house keepin for my lap top suddenly i found this picture...and my tear doesn't stop dropping...i miss him so much....i found all of his pic before he left us 4ever...this pic taken during his birthday, and i never ever forget wat he have told me for doing preparation for his birthday and i never 4got he told me this word "maybe this is my last birthday"...my mouth just keeping zipped because im speechless for wat have he told me....i remembered he wish to do a grand birthday party since he never celebrate or even throw a party for his birthday since he was kid, but for all this preparation there is lot of things hapen, 1st my parents didn't agreed it. 2ndly my parents said it is very costly...and i remembered that nite...we have this this discussion outside the house, it is very cleared in my mind that he crying and i mean both of us crying because we have own problem, his problem is he sad that my parents didnt agreed to throw a party in the house and mine is havin fight wit my lil bro...we both cry and this is the 1st tym ever i had this kind of conversation wit my family....Dear God, i pray that my brother will have eternal peace rest with u rite now... God, pls told him that i really miss him, and pls told him that im very sorry for every act that have make him mad of me....Amen....

i remembered this pic he said he luv this pic because he said this pic remind him of Jesus Chirst


and this cake is his favourite one, chocolate indulgence from secret recipe...

Our last pic wit him.....even u gone u still is beside us...........

Mum & Dad proud of u

Him wit his Foster Family

the frenss

and he is very active in choir....and this is his choir group member-SUARA BAYU

the house crowded wit his frens

he is enjoyed all nite wit lotsa fun thing





this is his primary teacher....

me n my sis



that nite is the memorable nite ever for us, mum n dad thanks for granted his wish, and he will remembered it even he is not around us anymore....
and after all of this sudden things happen, a lot of thing appeared in my mind, and i only can say this one..God created me to have a LIFE, and this LIFE is only once, soo for whom ever i ever had fighthing before pls 4give me, i really sorry for all the bad attitude....and this message i should say to someone that i had hurt her before...

and before end of this posting i would like to thanks a lot to MARTIN BUGUK...when my bro is sick u are the one whom helping him a lot...